NOW THAT YOU HAVE WON AND I HAVE BEEN FINANCIALLY AND PSYCHOLOGICALLY CRUSHED: WHAT'S UP?

THE FACT THAT I OWNED MY OWN HOME, WHICH I PURCHASED ON MY OWN, MADE MY OBJECTIONS TO LOSSES I HAD BEEN FORCED TO ENDURE WITHOUT A PROPER REMEDY SEEM TO BE NEUROTIC AND GREEDY WHEN I HAD SO MUCH, I STILL HAD MY HOUSE. EXCEPT THAT BY 2000, MY EX-WIFE AND MY MOTHER'S EXPLOITATION OF ME AND THEFT FROM ME LEFT ME WITH NO CASH AND MORE THAN $230,000 TAKEN FROM MY INHERITED MONEY.

WHEN I PURCHASED THE FIRST HOUSE ON THIS PROPERTY I HAD FIGURED OUT HOW TO DO IT MOSTLY USING MYSELF AS LABOR AND SOME FAMILY DERIVED MONEY TO FINISH IT AND THEN SELLING MY INVENTORY OF FINISHED JEWELRY TO PAY OFF THE $30K MORTGAGE. 

WHAT I DID NOT REALIZE WAS THAT INTEREST RATES HAD GONE WAY UP AND PROBABLY NO BANK WOULD HAVE GIVEN ME A MORTGAGE ANYWAY. I DID NOT KNOW IT THEN, BUT IT WAS IMPERATIVE THAT I PAY OFF THE MORTGAGE AND THEN GET A JOB.

I HAD SUCCEEDED IN PRODUCING A NO MORTGAGE HOME BUT I HAD NO POSSESSIONS AND I HAD USED UP ANY POSSIBLE STARTING A BUSINESS MONEY MY AUNT OR MY UNCLE WOULD HAVE PROVIDED. THERE WAS A LOT OF WORK TO DO AT THE NEW HOUSE AND ON THE GROUNDS  AROUND IT. I WOULD HAVE TO QUIT DRIVING SIX DAYS A WEEK TO VICTORIA. I HAD NO IDEA WHEN I TOOK THE CAR SALES JOB THAT I WOULD WORK TIL 9:30 PM UP TO THREE NIGHTS PER WEEK AND WITH ONE SATURDAY PER MONTH OFF. I HAD TO QUIT.

AS I WORKED AWAY, WITHOUT PAY, HERE AT OTTER POINT I BEGAN TO HAVE THE RUNS AND EVEN TO VOMIT.

THEN MY EX-WIFE DEMANDED HER "MAJOR BUSINESS SHE OPERATED" AND I ENDED UP IN DEBT AND BACK TO SIX LONG DAYS AND DRIVING TO VICTORIA.

I BECAME TOTALLY FATIGUED AND I WORKED LIKE AN AUTOMATON. I WAS THE DEBTOR TO MY FAMILY AND THE UNPAID SLAVE OF MY WIFE AMD WITHOUT REALIZING IT HAPPENED I BECAME FINANCIALLY AND PSYCHOLOGICALLY CRUSHED.

THEN THERE WAS THE DECEMBER 21  1986 CAR CRASH AND I WAS EVEN MORE CRUSHED, INTO A STATE OF FUGUE. 

IN RETROSPECT, RETROSPECTING, I FEEL DEFEATED IN THE PURSUIT OF MY PROJECTS AND AIMS. I FEEL MORE CRUSHED THAN I EVER FELT. I HAVE PROPERTY: MY HOME WAS CONSTANTLY RAIDED, I FEEL CRUSHED, I DO NOT FEEL RELAXED. I INHERITED ENOUGH MONEY AT AGE 55, IN 2001 TO BUY THE ROCKCLIFFE APARTMENTS IN VICTORIA BUT THAT WAS MADE TO BE NO MORE THAN AN INVESTMENT. MY APARTMENT BUILDING WAS A SCENE WHERE THE ALF TOONE COOP WON IN 2001 FAKE 911, AND POLICE AND BY-LAW COOPERATING WITH THEM AND I HAVE BEEN DEFEATED AND CRUSHED EVER SINCE.