I AM NOT RECOGNIZED FOR MY ARTISTIC SKILLS NOR FOR ALWAYS DOING ANYTHING I SAID I WOULD DO.

I ALWAYS COMPLETED ANY TASKS WHICH I HAD AGREED TO DO. I WAS ALSO FORCED TO COMPLETE YEARS OF MANUAL LABOR.

I DID ALL OF THE WORK I HAD TO DO DESPITE MY BEING PERIODICALLY CRIPPLED, SPASMED IN CONVULSION OR VIRTUALLY PARALYZED. 

I AM INTERESTED IN MY ART, WRITING AND MUSIC WHICH REMAINED IN HIATUS WHEN I HAD TO WORK EVERY DAY.

WHAT HATH THOU WROUGHT?

IF EVERYONE DID WHAT I DID THE WORLD WOULD CONTINUE TO PROSPER.

IF EVERYONE DID WHAT MY MOTHER AND MY EX-WIFE DID THE WORLD OF GRIM PUNISHMENT THEY CREATED WOULD GRIND DOWN INTO POVERTY AND PRIVATION.

IT WAS NOT SOMETHING GREAT THAT I CREATED, BUT SMALL AS IT WAS IT WAS WHOLE, EVERYTHING THAT WAS NEEDED TO SUSTAIN THE FAMILY I HAD AGREED TO SUPPORT BY JUNE OF NINETEEN EIGHTY. 

MY HOUSE WAS BURNED DOWN, ARSON.

WITH NO POSSESSIONS, NO BUSINESS ASSETS AND EQUIPMENT, AND ALL OF THE INSURANCE PAYMENT NOT QUITE ENOUGH TO BUILD THE HOUSE MY EX-WIFE DEMANDED I WAS IN SEVERELY DISTRESSFUL FINANCIAL STRAITS. 

THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN THE END OF EVEN MY OWN OWNERSHIP OF LAND AND A HOME IN AN UNDESIRABLE LOCATION. 

WITH EXTRA MONEY PROVIDED FROM RELATIVES I FINISHED THE HOUSE, AND KEPT THE LAND BUT I NEVER WROUGHT ANYTHING AGAIN. INSTEAD MY EX-WIFE AND MY MOTHER'S PUNISHMENT REGIME KEPT ME BUSY PAYING THEM.